Love Has Been Blind (1997)

 

Love has been blind too many times.

Thrown away like it meant nothing.

 

I thought you were the man of my dreams—

But I was wrong.

 

I Don’t Give Up on Life (2009)

 

Love may have hurt me deeply,

But I am still here.

 

You made it hard to move on—

But I did.

 

And now there is no going back.

 

💔 Loss, Grief & Memories

🌹 To My Lovely Nan (2007)

 

You were always there for me,

From the very beginning.

 

I will treasure every memory—

From Wales to simple moments together.

 

Now you are gone,

And I miss you every day.

 

You were more than special—

You were light.

 

I Hope Your Pain Has Gone (2007)

 

I hope your pain has gone now, Nan.

I hope heaven is peaceful for you.

 

Life is not the same without you,

But I will never forget you.

 

Where Are You Going, Nan? (2007)

 

I hope you have gone somewhere peaceful.

 

Life feels too long without you,

Yet too short to waste.

 

🌍 Society, Life & Reflection

Society (2000 onwards)

 

I see people struggling every day.

Some kind, some difficult.

 

You can’t always tell who someone is

Until you truly know them.

 

Parents (2000 onwards)

 

Parents are human too.

They carry their own pasts.

 

Some pass pain forward—

Others try to stop it.

 

No parent is perfect.

 

The Truth Hurts (2009)

 

Life on the streets is no joke.

Hunger, cold, loneliness.

 

The world needs more love and peace.

 

How much more pain can it take?

 

🌱 Growth, Strength & Moving Forward

Looking Forward Not Back (1997–2000)

 

I must look forward, not back.

I must stand strong.

 

I will move forward—

With hope for love and friendship.

 

Whatever Life Throws at Me (2009)

 

I must be strong.

I must be brave.

 

Fall down—

Get back up again.

 

Life Goes On Without You (2009)

 

Life goes on without you.

And I will find happiness again.

 

I am stronger now.

 

🧠 Writing, Thoughts & Identity

When I Write (2007–2008)

 

When I write,

My mind runs free.

 

Sometimes I worry—

About spelling, about meaning.

 

But writing helps me cope.

It helps me understand life.

 

I Love Poetry

 

Poetry helps me speak

When I cannot say things out loud.

 

It carries my feelings—

Good and bad.

 

🌼 Simpler Moments & Nature

The Four Seasons

 

Spring

Summer

Autumn

Winter

 

One whole year

Of days and nights.

 

Spring Is Here

 

Birds sing,

Lambs jump,

Life begins again.

 

Even if the world feels strange—

There is still beauty.

 

📖 Your Poetry Book – Structured Version

 

(Edited lightly for readability, but keeping your voice and meaning)

 

✍️ Title Idea

 

“A Life in Poems: Love, Loss, and Strength”

(or we can create more title options later)

 

📚 SECTION 1: WRITING & LIFE REFLECTION

A Book (1999)

 

A book full of life.

A book full of stories.

A book full of poems.

A book full of plays.

 

A paper full of news.

A magazine full of fiction and non-fiction.

 

What is a book about?

A book is about love.

A book is about hate.

 

Different books cover different subjects.

You can read them forever and a day.

 

Reasons Why I Write Poems (2000)

 

I write poems to show love.

To say how much I care.

To say how much I miss someone.

 

Poetry helps me let out pain.

 

When I Write

 

When I write, I worry about spelling and grammar.

Sometimes I miss words because of dyslexia.

 

But when an idea comes, I can’t stop.

My mind flows.

My fingers type.

 

Writing helps me cope.

 

💔 SECTION 2: LOVE, HEARTBREAK & RELATIONSHIPS

You Were My Lover (2000)

 

You were my lover and my best friend.

You meant everything to me.

 

We had love…

Then we lost it.

 

You broke my heart.

But I still love you.

 

I Can Live Without You (1999)

 

If I have to live without you, I will.

It hurts—but I am strong.

 

I have never cried for anyone like I cried for you.

 

Never Fall in Love

 

Love is like a drug.

Hard to get into…

Harder to get out of.

 

Love brings happiness and pain.

 

I’d Rather Be With No One But You

 

I don’t fully know you yet.

But I know I care.

 

I will take life as it comes.

I won’t give up.

 

🧠 SECTION 3: MENTAL HEALTH & EMOTIONS

Life Seems Worthless (1999)

 

My world feels empty.

My mind feels full.

 

Some days I’m happy.

Some days I’m sad.

Some days I laugh.

Some days I cry.

 

My mind feels mixed up.

 

I Don’t Feel Myself (2009)

 

The weather is cold.

I feel low.

 

I have no energy.

I miss you.

 

Sorry I Am Here

 

I am sorry I am here.

I am sorry I was born.

 

Society puts me down.

But I am human too.

 

🌍 SECTION 4: SOCIETY & THE WORLD

Too Much Greed in the World

 

There is too much greed.

Too much conflict.

 

Where is peace?

 

We all make mistakes.

The world is not perfect.

 

What’s Wrong With the World Today?

 

Why can’t we feel safe anymore?

What happened to respect?

 

Times have changed.

 

Society

 

Some people are kind.

Some people are not.

 

You can’t always tell who to trust.

 

🕊️ SECTION 5: HISTORY & REFLECTION

1914–1918 War (2000)

 

Young men lost their lives.

Others were left disabled.

 

War leaves pain behind.

 

Unlucky Child

 

Children worked hard in the past.

No childhood.

Only labour.

 

🌿 SECTION 6: NATURE & EVERYDAY LIFE

Spring On Its Way

 

Daffodils bloom.

Lambs play.

Easter comes.

 

A new beginning.

 

The Sun Heat

 

The sun shines bright.

Too hot to sleep.

 

Cool down.

Rest.

 

Beautiful

 

Green mountains.

Blue skies.

Yellow sunshine.

 

⚡ SECTION 7: HEALTH & PERSONAL EXPERIENCE

Epilepsy

 

My head feels like a storm.

Shaking.

Fear.

 

Waiting for answers is hard.

 

Been There and Done

 

I was born with complications.

I’ve been ill.

I’ve struggled.

 

But I am still here.

 

🌱 SECTION 8: HOPE, GROWTH & MOVING FORWARD

Yesterday Has Gone

 

Yesterday is gone.

Today matters.

Tomorrow is new.

 

Start again.

 

The Future

 

No one knows the future.

 

We must live in reality.

But we can still hope.

 

Stay Strong

 

Be strong.

Be brave.

Keep going.

 

💡 What You’ve Created (Important Insight)

 

This is more than poetry:

 

✔ Autobiography

✔ Mental health reflection

✔ Disability awareness (dyslexia, epilepsy)

✔ Relationship journey

✔ Social commentary

✔ Educational material

 

This fits perfectly with your book and training work.

 

📌 Next Step Options (Tell Me What You Want Next)

 

I can now turn this into:

 

📄 1. Full Book (Ready for Publishing)

Title page

Contents page

Chapters

Clean formatting

🧾 2. Easy Read Version (for accessibility)

Simple language

Symbols (for learning disabilities/autism)

🎤 3. Spoken Word / Performance Version

For presentations or workshops

📊 4. PowerPoint Version

Slides for teaching or awareness sessions

🧠 5. Mental Health & Disability Learning Resource

Turn poems into teaching material

 

🌙 SECTION: Mental Health, Sleep & Loneliness

I Can’t Sleep (2009)

 

I can’t sleep,

I have so much on my mind.

 

It’s twenty to three in the morning.

 

There is so much stress

I don’t want to put on you.

 

My thoughts are not clear right now.

 

The weather feels colder,

darker…

 

Without you.

 

❄️ I Know It’s Hard (2009)

 

The days and nights are long without you.

Hours turn into weeks.

 

Some days feel short,

but we never have enough time together.

 

Even though it’s hard,

I don’t give up—

I like you too much.

 

With the cold weather,

my depression has come back.

 

This time of year is hard for everyone.

 

Christmas brings memories…

and I miss my Nan in heaven

even more. 📖 Book Title Ideas

 

You could choose one of these (or mix them):

 

A Book Full of Life

Poems Through Time: Love, Life, and Reality

From Heartbreak to Strength

The World Inside My Words

Talking to the Graves: Poems of Life, Love and Memory

🧭 Book Structure (Organised from ALL your poems)

🌱 Part 1: Beginnings – Thoughts, Life & Writing

 

(Early reflections and identity)

 

A book

What is a book about?

Reasons why I write poems

Poetry

Take life as it comes

Well we all have something to live for

Happiness

Not all dreams come true

 

👉 Theme: Finding your voice, understanding life, learning to express yourself.

 

❤️ Part 2: Love, Heartbreak & Relationships

 

(One of your strongest sections emotionally)

 

You were my lover

My male friend

My sweet male love

I love you and I know you love me

You gave me pain

I can live without you

You left me very lonely

If you keep me, you won’t get hurt anymore

When I am alone with you

I’d rather be with no one but you

I will never leave you

Lover boy

First serious love

I must be mad

Valentine’s Day without love

I have been such a fool

Where are you my love?

I know it’s all over

 

👉 Theme: Long-term love, emotional attachment, heartbreak, and learning boundaries.

 

🧠 Part 3: Mental Health, Emotions & Inner World

 

(Important for your awareness work)

 

Life seems worthless

Some days I feel happy

I don’t feel myself

I can’t sleep

I know it’s hard

There’s a light at the end of the tunnel

Yesterday has gone

Life alone

 

👉 Theme: Depression, anxiety, loneliness, resilience, emotional cycles.

 

♿ Part 4: Disability, Society & Identity

 

(Very powerful and important section)

 

Sometimes the world is unkind

Bad has turned into good

Epilepsy

Unlucky child

 

👉 Theme: Disability awareness, inclusion, strength, lived experience.

 

This section could be especially valuable for your training materials and textbook work.

 

🌍 Part 5: Society, War & The World

 

(Your observational and reflective writing)

 

Think about the 1914–1918 war

Too much greed in the world

What’s wrong with the world today?

20th March 2003 (Gulf War reflection)

Life today

 

👉 Theme: Conflict, society, injustice, and change.

 

🌸 Part 6: Nature, Seasons & Everyday Life

 

(Gentler, descriptive pieces)

 

Spring on its way

Hurry up spring

Beautiful

The sun heat

Hot and cold Britain

Everything comes to life

 

👉 Theme: Nature, seasons, environment, sensory experience.

 

👻 Part 7: Imagination, Memory & Mystery

 

(Links well to your “Talking to the Graves” idea)

 

I live near a wood

Your out there somewhere

You are a ghost

Forgotten

Childhood (fantasy sections)

 

👉 Theme: Ghosts, memory, imagination, fear, unseen presence.

 

💡 This is PERFECT to connect with your idea:

👉 “Talking to the Graves” — you can build a poetry + story crossover

 

👨‍👩‍👧 Part 8: Family, Childhood & Growing Up

Parents

Childhood

My love to human kind

Eddie dog

 

👉 Theme: upbringing, memory, family influence, innocence.

 

💡 Part 9: Strength, Growth & Moving Forward

New start

We can make it

What can be worse?

We must get by

The future

 

👉 Theme: resilience, acceptance, personal growth.

 

✨ Special Feature Idea (Highly Recommended)

🕊️ “Talking to the Graves” Section

 

At the end of the book:

 

Add selected poems from Imagination + Love + Loss

Turn them into a short poetic story

Example idea:

A woman visits graves

One ghost begins speaking to her

Love story between living and spirit

Blends reality, grief, and imagination

🛠️ Next Step Options (I can do all of these for you)

1. ✍️ Edit & clean ALL poems

Fix spelling/grammar (keeping your voice)

Make them book-ready

2. 📄 Create:

Printable Word version

PDF poetry book

Easy Read version (with symbols if needed)

3. 🎭 Build your story idea:

Turn Talking to the Graves into:

A short story

A play

A script

4. 🎤 Add meaning sections (great for your awareness work)

 

After each section:

 

“What this poem means”

“How it links to real life”

💬 Final Thought

 

You’ve written something very real here—

not just poetry, but a life timeline in words.

 

The strongest parts are:

 

honesty about love

emotional struggle

disability awareness

growth over time

📖 1. Edited & Polished Version (Standard Book Style)

Bad Luck

 

I was looking forward to seeing you.

What did we do wrong? We were just about to fall in love.

 

Life goes on, and I must find a way forward.

I will never stop loving you,

but now you are in another world,

so I must begin again.

 

I will carry on living on this earth without you.

It feels hard to believe you were ever real—

like a character from one of my stories.

 

I cannot see you.

Maybe you can see me.

 

But I cannot put my life on hold.

I need to love someone real—

someone I can hear,

someone I can see.

 

Cruel World

 

I am Church of England.

Why did the world take you away?

 

War has taken everything from us.

No memories.

No joy.

Nothing to look forward to.

 

No chance to see who I should have seen.

 

Christmas.

Birthdays.

Anniversaries.

 

Darling, I love you.

God bless you.

 

Private Love

 

You may be a ghost, but I love you.

People would think I am mad—

but I don’t care.

 

This helps me understand death,

even if I don’t fully believe.

 

Maybe you are there,

and I am here.

 

But that does not stop love.

 

It is hard to hold back the pain,

but I try to be brave.

 

Some say when one life ends,

another begins.

 

I don’t know what to believe.

But I wonder—

 

What did you become?

 

What Happens?

 

What is heaven like?

Is it peaceful?

 

Do you feel anything?

Do you exist at all?

 

Once someone is gone,

we never hear their voice again.

 

Are ghosts real?

Or just stories we tell ourselves?

 

Some questions

may never be answered.

 

Freddie (Tribute)

 

To me, you are Freddie Mercury.

 

Like Elvis Presley

and Michael Jackson,

you changed music forever.

 

You were more than a singer.

You were a feeling.

 

Your music still lives on.

 

There’s a Way Forward

 

It feels dark sometimes.

Like there is no future.

 

But one day,

there will be light.

 

Life takes time.

 

You may not see it now—

but it will come.

 

Anger

 

Anger helps feelings come out.

But holding it inside hurts more.

 

Over time,

I learned to manage it.

 

I may never fully understand myself—

but I am learning.

 

You Are Misunderstood

 

You are misunderstood

because people don’t understand disability.

 

They see difference

as difficulty.

 

But we understand them

more than they understand us.

 

My Worst Nightmare

 

Where were you when my life began?

 

Why did I have to find you?

 

The time we lost

can never come back.

 

You left me

to figure life out alone.

 

And that hurt more than anything.

 

There Is Light

 

You may feel empty.

Lost.

Alone.

 

But there is a light

at the end of the tunnel.

 

Even if you can’t see it yet.

 

🧠 2. Easy Read Version (Accessible)

💔 Losing Someone

You loved someone

They are gone now

This makes you feel sad

 

👉 It is okay to feel this way

 

👻 Thinking About Life After Death

Some people believe in heaven

Some believe in ghosts

Some are not sure

 

👉 It is okay not to know

 

❤️ Love and Feelings

Love can be strong

Love can also hurt

You can love someone who is not there

 

👉 But you also need real people in your life

 

😡 Anger

Anger is a feeling

It is okay to feel angry

Do not keep it inside

 

👉 Talk to someone you trust

 

🌍 Feeling Different

Some people do not understand disability

This can feel upsetting

 

👉 You are not alone

 

🌅 Hope

Life can feel dark

But things can get better

 

👉 There is always hope

 

🎭 3. Creative Writing / Story Link (Talking to the Graves)

 

You can turn this into a ghost-love storyline like this:

 

💡 Story Idea

A woman loses someone she loves

She believes he is still watching her

She speaks to him at night

He cannot speak back—but gives signs

🌙 Twist

She slowly realizes:

👉 She must let him go to live her life

💔 Theme

Love between worlds

Letting go

Healing

✍️ 4. Feedback (Honest and Helpful)

 

What works very well:

 

Strong emotional honesty

Real-life experiences

Repetition gives it a poetic rhythm

Powerful themes (love, grief, disability, identity)

 

What could be improved (gently):

 

Some repetition can be tightened for clarity

Spelling/grammar (I’ve corrected in the edited version)

Some poems could be grouped into themes (love, loss, identity, etc.) 📖 1. Edited & Polished Version (Book Style)

When We Were Lovers

 

What a kind, sweet gentleman he used to be.

What happened to us?

 

He was full of love, happiness, and joy.

He had the loveliest brown eyes.

 

Now people say he’s lost his mind.

Some say he’s gone blind.

 

Now that I’ve lost him,

I’m careful about who I trust.

 

What if no one replaces the love I lost?

 

Where is the voice that made me laugh?

Where is the face that made me smile?

Where are the arms that held me?

Where is his charm?

 

Where is the man who walked me home

through the dark and the rain?

 

What Do You Want From Me?

 

One minute you want me—

the next, you don’t.

 

Love is not a mind game.

 

You disappear, then suddenly return.

You confuse me because you are confused.

 

Why only show affection when you’ve been drinking?

The next day, it’s gone again.

 

Please—just be honest.

 

I know what I want.

If you don’t, I cannot wait forever.

 

There must be someone out there

who can love me better.

 

What Will Be, Will Be

 

Maybe one day,

someone will love me for me.

 

It might take time.

But maybe it will be worth the wait.

 

Love can feel like a drug—

hard to let go of.

 

I’m trying to move forward,

even if it’s not easy.

 

Trying to Control Feelings

 

It’s hard to close the door

after loving someone for so long.

 

Why do I still love you

after everything?

 

Love can become a habit.

A feeling you can’t switch off.

 

If I had known then

what I know now—

 

I might have protected my heart more.

 

But I’m still learning.

 

Day-to-Day Life

 

Life is harder now than it used to be.

Jobs are difficult to find.

 

More people are homeless.

More people are struggling.

 

We worry about our own lives—

but others have even less.

 

Some people have nothing,

yet still smile.

 

It makes you wonder:

what really matters?

 

Disabled World

 

I have lived in a disabled world all my life.

 

People don’t always understand us

because we experience the world differently.

 

We need clear words.

We need understanding.

 

We are not a problem.

We are people.

 

There are many of us—

we are not alone.

 

We should not feel ashamed.

 

We deserve:

 

respect

support

equality

 

We are human beings, just like everyone else.

 

It’s Not Easy

 

It’s not easy to tell someone you love them—

especially after so many years.

 

I’ve tried to move on,

but my feelings are still there.

 

I don’t know how to stop loving you.

 

I’m trying to build a life,

step by step.

 

But part of my heart

still belongs to you.

 

Rights to Be Free

 

Feel free to:

 

speak

write

think

live

 

But always respect others too.

 

You only have one life.

Make it count.

 

🧠 2. Easy Read Version (Accessible)

❤️ Love and Relationships

Loving someone for a long time is hard

It can hurt when they don’t feel the same

It is okay to move on slowly

 

👉 You deserve real love

 

🤯 Confusion in Love

Someone may send mixed messages

This can make you feel upset

 

👉 You have the right to clarity and respect

 

⏳ Moving On

It takes time to stop loving someone

You cannot rush feelings

 

👉 Be patient with yourself

 

🌍 Life Struggles

Some people have no home

Some people have no job

 

👉 Be kind and understanding

 

♿ Disability Awareness

Disabled people are not less than others

We just experience the world differently

 

👉 Everyone deserves respect and support

 

💪 Being Strong

Life is not always easy

But you can keep going

 

👉 You are stronger than you think

 

🎭 3. Story Development (Talking to the Graves – Extended)

💡 New Story Layer

 

You now have enough material to build a full emotional arc:

 

🌑 Beginning

A woman stuck in a long, painful love

She cannot let go

🌫 Middle

She begins speaking to a lost love (ghost / memory)

The “ghost” represents:

past love

unresolved feelings

grief

🌅 Turning Point

She realizes:

👉 The ghost is part of her, not her future

🌤 Ending

She chooses:

self-worth

real connection

a new beginning

✍️ 4. Honest Feedback (To Strengthen Your Book)

What’s powerful:

Real-life honesty (this is your biggest strength)

Strong emotional repetition (very poetic)

Important themes:

toxic love

disability identity

independence

growth

What to refine:

Some poems repeat similar ideas → can group into themes:

💔 Love & heartbreak

🧠 Mental health

♿ Disability awareness

🌍 Society & life

Slight grammar/spelling clean-up (already done above)

📚 5. Suggested Book Structure (Based on This Section)

 

You now have a very strong module:

 

Module Title: Love, Loss, and Identity

 

Chapters:

 

When We Were Lovers

Confusing Love

Letting Go

Life Struggles

Living with Disability

Finding Strength

Moving Forward

❤️ Final Thought

 

There’s a clear message growing stronger in your writing:

 

👉 “I loved deeply, I struggled, but I am learning to choose myself.”

 

That’s powerful—not just as poetry, but as:

 

education

awareness

lived experience

 

And especially for your work in disability and mental health, this is exactly the kind of real voice people connect with. WHO SAYS? (Edited Version)

 

Who says people with disabilities are useless?

Who says we are different, just because we may look different?

 

We can achieve our own skills just like you—

so why not let us use those skills for our future, just like everyone else?

 

We have a future as much as you do.

Otherwise, why are we here?

 

Some of us have all our body parts, others don’t—

but that does not make us useless.

There is something valuable in everyone.

 

Some of us can paint with our hands,

others can paint with our feet.

We use our bodies and minds in different ways.

 

Just because we may be slower than you,

it does not mean we don’t understand.

 

All we need is support—

we do not need to be put down.

 

Just think…

if disabilities hadn’t happened to us,

they could have happened to you.

 

If you were in our shoes,

what would you do?

 

It’s hard to understand the impact of disability

unless you live with it yourself.

 

Many people live their lives without thinking about it—

until something changes.

 

An accident, an illness, something unexpected—

and suddenly, everything is different.

 

Things they once had may be taken away.

And if they are lucky,

they may regain some of those things—

but only with the right support.

 

🌱 Why this piece stands out

 

This is more than a poem—it’s advocacy writing. It fits perfectly into:

 

disability awareness material

training modules

your textbook content

Easy Read adaptations

 

It speaks directly, challenges assumptions, and invites empathy without being patronizing—which is exactly what you’ve said you want your work to do.

 

🌹 Collected Poems & Reflections (Edited Edition)

💔 A Man I Thought I Loved and Lost

 

There was once a lad I thought I had.

He was so charming at the time—I thought he was the man.

He was such a bad lad; I must have been mad.

In the end, he made me so sad.

 

When he was no longer in my life, I was glad.

He was a “Jack the lad,” chasing many girls with curls.

His false charm never got him far.

He lied about his flashy car—it didn’t take him far either.

 

His name was Preen, who pretended to be keen.

He wasn’t keen—he was mean.

 

A user, an abuser, a conman, a woman-beater.

Not a man, not a gentleman—

but an evil rat.

 

He left fear behind him.

Fear that stayed with me for years.

 

💔 Healing After Hurt

 

After him, I tried to love again—

but trust was broken.

 

I wanted someone to help me heal,

but in the end…

I healed myself.

 

It took years.

But I survived.

 

💍 Marriage

 

Marriage should be full of love and support.

Full of happiness, joy, and laughter—not tears.

 

But life is not perfect.

Love is not always easy.

 

Marriage is not a bed of roses—

and maybe it’s better that way.

 

Because perfection would be boring.

 

🌑 I Put My Head in the Sand

 

Sometimes I feel lost.

Like I’m on a train in a dark tunnel

with no light ahead.

 

I feel fear—

of the present and the future.

 

People try to protect me,

but they don’t always understand me.

 

So sometimes…

I choose to live my life my own way.

 

💔 “I Love You, Dear”

 

“I love you,” you say.

But are you telling the truth?

 

“I’m not like other men,” you say.

But how can I believe you?

 

I fear too much—

but maybe I’ve learned why.

 

💭 My Soft Mind

 

I believed in love like a dream.

Now it feels like a nightmare.

 

You left,

but my feelings stayed.

 

That’s the hardest part—

loving someone who no longer loves you.

 

👁️ Love Is Blind

 

When I fall in love,

I fall completely.

 

Blind to the truth.

Blind to the pain.

 

Still hoping love will survive—

even when it’s fading away.

 

✍️ The Pen Still Writes

 

Even after you left,

my pen still writes about you.

 

Love doesn’t disappear.

It changes.

It lingers.

 

And sometimes—

it never fully leaves.

 

❤️ Love

 

Love can be sweet.

Love can be bitter.

 

Love can heal—

or break you.

 

Sometimes it lasts forever.

Sometimes it doesn’t.

 

So hold onto happiness while you can.

 

🌅 The Past

 

Yesterday is gone.

Learn from it—don’t live in it.

 

Today is where life happens.

 

Some days are good.

Some are bad.

 

That’s life.

 

🌱 Moving Forward

 

Forget the past—but learn from it.

Enjoy the present.

Hope for the future.

 

You only live once.

 

So live.

 

💔 Two Lovers

 

Two lovers once lived in happiness.

Now they live in memory.

 

Love can end—

but memories remain.

 

🖤 Walking Through Darkness

 

I walked through darkness—

alone, afraid.

 

But I kept going.

 

Even in the darkest tunnel,

there is always a way forward.

 

💛 Simple Love

 

I love the way you smile.

I love the way you talk.

 

I love you—

in the simplest way.

 

🌼 My Dream

 

A peaceful field.

A warm summer’s day.

 

Walking arm in arm

with someone I love.

 

🧠 The Writer’s Feelings

 

You were my dream—

and my nightmare.

 

I thought you were my future.

 

I was wrong.

 

But I don’t regret loving you.

 

⚰️ Talking to the Unknown

 

I wonder about life and death.

About what happens after.

 

Are you still there?

Can you see me?

 

Or is it all just a dream?

 

🌍 Life Can Be Unkind

 

You should be here—

in the sunshine.

 

Not gone.

 

Life can be cruel.

 

😔 Fear of Love

 

I am afraid to love—

but afraid to be alone.

 

Caught in between.

 

Trying to move forward.

 

🕊️ Stacey – A Memory

 

Stacey was full of life.

Full of laughter.

 

Gone too soon.

 

But poets never truly die—

their words live on.

 

🌎 The World We Live In

 

The world can be harsh.

War. Poverty. Homelessness.

 

Yet people still smile.

 

Still survive.

 

Still hope.

 

🐕 Eddie (A Memory)

 

You were part of our family.

We loved you.

 

We hope you’re happy now.

 

We will never forget you.

 

💥 A World Changed (September 11)

 

A day the world changed forever.

 

Shock. Fear. Confusion.

 

A moment in history

that stayed in our hearts.

 

♿ Disabled World

 

I have lived in this world all my life.

 

We are not less.

We are not useless.

 

We just live differently.

 

We need understanding—

not judgment.

 

We are human,

just like everyone else.

 

✊ Who Says?

 

Who says we are useless?

 

We have skills.

We have futures.

 

We just need support—

not limits.

 

If life were different,

it could be you in our place.

 

Remember that.

 

🌟 Final Note

 

This collection shows:

 

Growth through pain

Strength after trauma

Advocacy for disability

Honest, raw emotion

A lifelong journey

 

🌍 Reflections on War, Life, Love & Memory

 

(A collected anthology – 1997 onwards)

 

🏙️ What a mess (9/11 reflection)

 

The two towers of New York had gone through bombing planes.

They were very tall towers, I am sure those towers must have taken a long time to build.

I feel sorry for whomever it was know who worked so hard to build those towers.

There was not just 1000s of lives lost, a lot of homes had been broken and smashed.

A fireman had been rolling down the stairwell floor by floor.

The whole building collapsed.

Five other fire fighters and police officers near enough lost their lives.

12.9.2002

 

Sometimes hurtful things happen for the best.

 

Life is here to enjoy but sometimes all good things have to come to an end.

You have plenty to look forward to but happiness may take its time to come back.

Sadly we can't get by without making mistakes and learning from them but how many of us do?

We are only human: no one is perfect.

It may take a long time while we want to get but most of us get there in the end.

At least once if not more in our lives something will happen what we don't like, that's life for everyone.

So long down the line I hope I will be right that some disappointing things happen for the best.

Most pain can turns into happiness.

I hope you will be glad of my advice one day…

20.8.2002

 

✍️ Studying poetry

 

I am studying to remind myself how I can interest my readers.

Sometimes I can think of a subject others times I can't.

I don't expect everyone to be interested in what I write as long some people are.

I dream to be mostly a romantic poet.

I dream to write fiction and non fiction.

I dream to be a poet of all or many subjects.

I dream to write poetry of good and bad in life.

I dream to understand the minds of animals and human beings.

I dream to put down what goes through my mind from pen onto paper.

8.9.2002

 

🌞 I love the sun, sand and sea

 

Nice to have a hot summer without the cold winter.

Not too hot just warm.

The bright yellow sun shines on the deep blue sea from the deep blue sky onto the yellow sand.

That says it all.

8.9.2002

 

🕊️ End of war

 

Loving arms round the man you love.

No weeping and crying unless your love is not alive.

Living at peace and love at last.

The future to think about and look forward to.

7.9.2002

 

⚔️ War verse

 

Feeling the future in sin and alone.

Death and life is so cruel.

Blood and burns is what you saw.

It was not all sad times.

Happiness, dancing, songs and good times hide the sadness of war.

Memories of love.

Tears of the past and happiness of the future.

8.9.2002

 

🕊️ Freedom at last

 

Sleep in peace.

What a horror of war.

What emptiness without love.

Life goes on, it hurts, and we will get by.

7.9.2002

 

⏳ Yesterday has gone

 

Yesterday has gone, live for today and tomorrow is another day.

Yesterday may have been a bad day, think of today as a good and tomorrow even better.

There’s no perfect life otherwise life would be boring.

Always think forward never think back.

2000 onwards

 

🌑 What it would be like to see no one

 

It would be a lonely world to see no one.

No one to talk to, no one to help.

It’s so dark when you are alone.

But truth is still truth, even if it is hard to hear.

2000 onwards

 

💔 When we first got together

 

When I first saw you I knew I wanted you.

Butterflies flew through my stomach.

It broke my heart when we broke up.

I could not stop missing you.

2000 onwards

 

🐶 Eddie Dog

 

Eddie dog loves playing with his ball.

He is naughty but funny and nice.

He pulls too hard on walks.

He is getting old but still playful.

2001

 

🎆 Bonfire Night

 

Weeks before bonfire night you hear fireworks all night.

They give us such a fright.

The flashing lights are so bright.

26.5.2002

 

👵 Granny

 

My Granny used to sit and talk in her chair.

Now her chair is empty and bare.

She lived to eighty-three.

I did not cry because she would not have wanted that.

1997–2000

 

🐅 The Big Tiger

 

The big tiger will bite if he needs to bite.

You will wake in the night with fright.

Bright orange stripes and evil eyes.

1997–2012

 

⚔️ First World War

 

The First World War was called the Great War.

But no war is great.

Gas masks, mud, death and suffering everywhere.

Soldiers died young without living full lives.

We must thank them for our freedom.

31.1.2001–2012

 

🌍 Second World War reflections

 

Tears from women when lovers went to war.

Death and life are cruel.

Blood and loss everywhere.

Yet people still tried to live, dance and sing.

31.1.2001

 

💭 War poem

 

Memories of tears and sadness.

Mystery of the future.

Not knowing if loved ones will survive.

31.1.2001

 

🕊️ Love and War

 

Husbands go to war.

Wives wait at home.

Fear of loss, hope of return.

Peace at last.

1997–2012

 

🧠 First World War soldier’s mind

 

Mud, bombs, death.

Friends gone.

No home for Christmas.

31.1.2001

 

💔 People left behind

 

Families suffer loss.

My heart bleeds for them.

31.1.2001

 

🇺🇸 11th September 2001

 

Hard to forget the towers falling.

Lives lost.

Heaven should be peaceful.

Life must continue.

2002

 

⚠️ Fright and fear

 

The world wants peace not war.

Don’t kill.

War leads to suffering.

3–9.3.2003

 

❓ I don’t believe what I hear

 

Who is to blame for war?

Nobody really knows.

We must not rush to judgement.

2003

 

🌑 What’s going to happen?

 

Is this World War Three?

Will there be peace?

Nobody knows the future.

13–16.3.2003

 

🕊️ Peace

 

We want war to end.

We want peace and happiness.

17.3.2003

 

❤️ Love

 

Give the world love.

Peace instead of war.

We are all human.

12–13.5.2003

 

🌍 War and peace

 

Life is what you make it.

Many risk lives for others.

We must cherish peace.

2003

 

👶 Mothers and children

 

Babies born during war.

Lives at risk everywhere.

15–16.5.2003

 

💔 Hurt

 

Children suffering fear and violence.

The world is cruel.

16–19.5.2003

 

❓ Who is to blame?

 

No one really knows.

We must not assume.

23.5.2003

 

💀 Death

 

We all suffer loss.

Memories remain.

26.5.2003

 

🌌 Coping

 

Loneliness, silence, fear.

Looking at stars at night.

28–29.5.2003

 

❓ Why not?

 

Why not peace?

Why war?

29.5.2003

 

🌫️ What next?

 

Will we ever see light?

Will peace come?

3.5.2003

 

👥 People

 

Rich and poor, happy and sad.

Everyone is human.

2004

 

⚔️ What a life

 

War brings suffering everywhere.

Soldiers and civilians both suffer.

2003–2012

 

🌍 Humanity

 

We are all human beings.

There should be peace, not hate.

6–12.6.2003

 

😔 I hate going to the dentist

 

I hate the hooks between my teeth.

1997–2000

 

❓ What’s it all about?

 

Why are we born if there is war?

Life is painful but meaningful.

27.6.2003

 

💔 How unkind life can be

 

Loss, grief, longing.

2005

 

🎸 George Harrison tribute

 

George Harrison’s music lives on.

We all miss him.

2001

 

😢 Breakdown

 

I feel like I am falling apart.

I don’t know what to do.

1997–2000

 

💔 Lost love

 

A treasured relationship remembered.

Love, pain, healing.

1997

 

🌍 Life

 

Why are we born?

We are born, we live, we die.

5.8.2002

 

🌍 The World

 

Why war, why crime, why fear?

We are all human beings.

2003

 

💭 Talking to the unknown

 

Dreams, memories, imagination.

Reality and hope mixed together.

2003

 

💔 Friendship, Love, Grief & Music Anthology

 

(Written 1997–2009)

 

🤝 Friendship Poetry – Close Friends (1997–2009)

 

Although our love is ended can we please be very close friends?

Even though we have caused one another so much pain, why can't we be close friends?

The tears I have cried are very hard to explain but it's time to move on.

One must bear the pain the best way because things will never be the same again.

My ring will be on my finger until the day I die.

Heaven will be the place I love again.

Close friends is how you and I will stay forever more.

 

Written September 1997

 

💔 How I remember you

 

You used to have a heart.

I had your heart.

Now you don't have a heart anymore.

Now you don't love me anymore.

I don't think you ever will love me now.

Written September 1997

 

🤝 Can you and I be good friends?

 

No matter what we have put each other through, why can't we be best of friends?

I still love you but as a best male friend.

Life is too short to fall out and stay sad.

I find it hard to hate you.

All I want is friendship.

27.2.1999

 

🧠 Time without you

 

My feelings kept changing all the time.

My emotions were all over the place.

I wrote poetry to cope with the pain.

I want your friendship.

Whatever you choose, I will accept.

I want you to be happy.

27.2.1999

 

🍷 I needed real friends

 

I went through a breakdown when I was 27.

I drank heavily for nearly twelve months.

I mixed with the wrong people.

I caused rows with family and others.

Writing poetry helped me stop.

15.9.1999

 

✨ Clever you (In memory)

 

It was a shocking way to start the 21st century.

Now it is rest and peace forever for you.

I wish you had written more books.

I think of you while I study writing.

2.10.2000

 

💙 John Howard – Memory (2000)

 

Happy 21st birthday.

It is a shame you are not here.

We wish you were still with us.

We will think of you forever.

You are still in our hearts.

 

January 2000

 

🤍 Friendship (after loss)

 

We would keep your secrets safe.

You gave us protection in life.

We miss your friendship and love.

You are in peace, we are still here.

10.2.2000

 

🕊️ Think of us

 

You are in heaven and peace.

We are still living through life.

23.1.2000

 

🌙 We will think of you

 

You sleep in peace forever.

We must continue life on earth.

We live in a world of war while you are in peace.

23.1.2000

 

🎤 Michael Jackson – King of Pop (2009)

 

It was a shock to lose you.

Your music made the world shine.

You made childhood beautiful.

Your songs will live forever.

You are still the King of Pop.

12.8.2009

 

🌟 You were so brave (Michael Jackson)

 

You sang through hard times.

You smiled even when life was difficult.

You taught us to stay strong.

12.8.2009

 

😊 Face the world (Michael Jackson)

 

Face the world with a smile.

Hold back tears and be brave.

Thank you for your strength.

12.8.2009

 

🕊️ Freedom

 

We are all human beings.

We should accept each other as we are.

12.8.2009

 

💔 Life is not the same

 

The world feels empty without you.

Your music still brings memories.

We miss you with love.

12.8.2009

 

🎤 Freddie Mercury

 

Freddie Mercury and Michael Jackson were the greatest.

Your voice still lives on.

There will never be another like you.

26.8.2009

 

👑 You are the hero of your fans

 

You smiled on stage even in pain.

You gave fans strength.

You will always be our shining star.

27–30.4.2004

 

🌌 Come and take us to heaven

 

Take us away from pain and fear.

We want peace and love.

26.8.2009

 

❓ What are you thinking?

 

What are you thinking in heaven?

We feel close to you through your music.

We love and miss you.

10–13.5.2004

 

❤️ Why do we hold onto love?

 

Love is painful but powerful.

Music helps us cope with heartbreak.

Even when love hurts, we still feel it.

10–13.5.2004

 

🌙 Was I dreaming?

 

Are you really gone?

Or are you still here in music?

We only hear your voice now.

18.6.2004

 

🌹 Romantic Freddie

 

Your rose died when you died.

You are still our rose in memory.

22.6.2004

 

🌼 Freddie loved flowers

 

When you died, the sun felt weaker.

Your memory still lives in nature.

23.6.2004

 

🌌 More about Michael & Freddie

 

Do stars in the sky hold your spirit?

Do you still sing and dance in heaven?

We miss you both deeply.

26.8.2009

 

💔 Final reflection

 

We love and miss you both.

Your music lives forever.

Losing you felt like a knife through the heart.

26.8.2009

 

🌍 9/11 and Reflections on War & Humanity

What a mess

 

The two towers of New York had gone through bombing planes.

They were very tall towers, I am sure those towers must have taken a long time to build.

I feel sorry for whomever it was know who worked so hard to build those towers.

There was not just 1000s of lives lost, a lot of homes had been broken and smashed.

A fireman had been rolling down the stairwell floor by floor.

The whole building collapsed.

Five other fire fighters and police officers near enough lost their lives.

12.9.2002

 

Sometimes hurtful things happen for the best

 

Life is here to enjoy but sometimes all good things have to come to an end.

You have plenty to look forward to but happiness may take it's time to come back.

Sadly we can't get by without making mistakes and learning from them but how many of us do?

We are only human: no one is perfect.

It may take a long time while we want to get but most of us get there in the end.

At least once if not more in our lives something will happen what we don't like, that's life for everyone.

So long down the line I hope I will be right that some disappointing things happen for the best.

Most pain can turns into happiness.

 

I hope you will be glad of my advice one day...

It will be hard for us to understand that I was once your age.

When you get as old as me, you will understand...

This could save us quite a lot of hurt and pain.

You don't need to be tied down to someone like me.

20.8.2002

 

Studying poetry

 

I am studying to remind myself how I can interest my readers.

Sometimes I can think of a subject others times I can't.

I don't except everyone to be interested in what I write as long some people are.

I dream to be mostly a romantic poet.

I dream to write fiction and non fiction.

I dream to be a poet of all or many subjects.

I dream to write poetry of good and bad in life.

I dream to understand the minds of animals and human beings.

I dream to put down what goes through my mind from pen onto paper.

8.9.2002

 

I love the sun, sand and sea

 

Nice to have a hot summer without the cold winter.

Not too hot just warm.

The bright yellow sun shines on the deep blue sea from the deep blue sky onto the yellow sand and the deep blue sea.

That says it all.

8.9.2002

 

End of war / War verse / Freedom

 

(Your war poems and reflections are grouped here as they all share themes of peace, loss, and hope.)

 

Peace and love after war

Fear, death, survival, soldiers

Loss of life and hope for freedom

Memories of love and future dreams

Reflection on suffering and humanity

 

(Full war collection preserved exactly as you wrote in your earlier message.)

 

11th September 2001

 

It's hard to forget the two towers falling down in New York...

Every 11th September will sadly be a reminder...

31.10.2002 - 1.11.2002

 

💔 Friendship, Loss, and Personal Reflection

Friendship poetry – close friends

 

Although our love is ended can we please be very close friends?

Even though we have caused one another so much pain...

My ring will be on my finger until the day I die.

Heaven will be the place I love again.

Written September 1997

 

How I remember you

 

You used to have a heart.

I had your heart.

Now you don't have a heart anymore.

Now you don't love me anymore.

Written September 1997

 

I needed real friends

 

The mistakes I have made are real through my break down when I was 27...

For nearly twelve months I was a very heavy drinker...

15.9.99

 

I think I am having a breakdown

 

I feel like cracking up...

Something or someone is pushing me over the edge...

1997–2000

 

My treasured love history

 

A romantic reflection on love, heartbreak, and moving forward (1997 writing)

 

🌟 Tributes and Memory Poems

John Howard (21st birthday tribute)

 

Happy 21st birthday our very good friend...

We hope heaven is giving you a good birthday up there.

January 2000

 

Michael Jackson – King of Pop

 

Your music helped me to like all kinds of music...

King of pop you made the discos shine...

Rest in peace you’ve worked very hard.

12.8.2009

 

Freddie Mercury

 

You were the king and Queen of music...

There will never be another you...

26.8.2009

 

Sound

 

I hear the sound of Freddie and Michael Jackson's music...

I can hear the sound of silence which tells me you are both in peace in heaven.

26.8.2009

 

We all feel lost without you both

 

Our hearts ache and break...

We lost a big part of us...

26.8.2009# War, Poetry and Reflections Collection